In the meantime, I am taking advantage of my break. I have been tying up loose ends here at home, worked on the family's genealogy and found a place for my youngest to stay while attending school at UCF.
I feel more relaxed and my stress level has fallen to a more normal manageable level. A friend of mine tried to analyze why I get so stressed at what she deems to be a relatively simple task. I answered her with the fact that I feel responsible for the success of others and I push myself to do more than what may be necessary. I feel that if they fail, it is my failure as well. And in having set such high standards for myself, I burned out very quickly. So, here I sit....putting out the fire.....(smile).
On a brighter, shocking note...
While researching my family history, I found out that I am of French descent and not just a smidgen of French, I am talking DEEP rooted French. I was shocked but it all made sense to me. I have always been drawn to the French language. In the few months I had to learn it, I picked up quite a bit and I still remember it, after 35 years!....goes to show you that one's heritage is deeply rooted in the genes. I have traced my roots 8 generations back to 16th century in France. In 1830, my great-great-great-great grandfather, Dr Francois Marie Normand, boarded a ship and settled in Natchatochez, LA, one of the first French settlements. While there, he married Marie Lolette Rachal, also French, and thus began the family in this great nation. While doing my research on ancestry.com, I came across a gentleman who was looking for the Cuban side of the Normand family. I contacted him and we connected the dots and realized we were first cousins! He was so excited to find a connection for the Cuban branch. And I am excited to say that my family is HUGE!!! I have family in France, Louisiana and Cuba!!
And that is what I have been up to...mostly healing me and after all that's said and done, ME is what's important.
Your thoughts??
Not sure, if you are or were the only person that did not realize how great and awesome you are??? I can understand the "feeling responsible for everybody else's" part, all too well, but you are right, you are the important one. Glad you had time to reflect on that and happy for you that you found new family. Sounds like you are "finding" yourself. Hope you won't forget your lil ole friends in FL. (((HUG))))
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