I went to the doc today. It was all routine but I still felt like I was not going to walk out of there standing up. My off the scale thought process may be due in part because we as a society are bombarded with so much negative news. Vitamins are good, vitamins are bad, too much will cause this, the side effects of taking this medication is that it might kill you but the benefit is that you will survive long enough to see it kill you. After so much health negativism, society becomes traumatized to the point where breathing will kill me and thus I am doomed.

As we mature, and you notice I did not say get OLDER, I just don't like that word, we become more aware of our mortality. According to the news, death and disease is running amuck. And if you sit and watch the 24/7 news, you hear the same thing over and over again. I have learned to sit in front of the TV but not turn it on, like now. I have my notebook on my lap, sitting comfortably in my favorite chair, itunes playing and I am typing away. I already know what awaits me, and I don't need some news-paparazzi-television-rating-monger telling me all the different ghastly ways I may end up there.

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On my oldest's Birthday...

My oldest son celebrated a birthday yesterday. And as always I became melancholy thinking back to the events of that day and the day before.

Back in 1984, it was still common for couples to be surprised with the sex of their baby. Sure we had ultrasound but it was only used for high risk pregnancies. And as strange as this may sound, I already knew what I was going to have without anyone telling me. I had a dream of Luis and exactly what he would look like. It was amazing!! After that dream, I told Louie (daddy) and he grinned from ear to ear.

And even stranger still, I remember the date he was conceived!! The pregnancy test was just formality. I remember Louie calling me at work and announcing, "Congratulations, woman, you're pregnant!" There was such an excitement in his voice and after I hung up the phone, it felt like I was walking on clouds. Yes, I was excited!!

So, every May 4th at exactly 8:59am, I make sure that wherever my son may be, he receives his proud parents welcome into the world!!!

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